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The Unity of Biology and Ecology with Spirit Sacred Space : Dragon & Ice Castle |
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Rediscovery of Sacred Space in the Finger Lakes Part One: Chapter Twenty Six David's Discovery Friday, March 11, 1988 © 1989 David Yarrow
I saw the bold headline through the window in my front door. Joe Parson's bright, cheery face beamed at me as he held an evening newspaper up to the glass. I returned his smile and reached for the doorknob. Stepping inside, he handed me the newspaper, saying, "Hello, kind sir. I'm honored to be here with a famous Syracusan." Joe was like a burst of sunshine through my door. I took the paper as Joe took off his shoes. I felt somber and heavy beside Joe's pleasant ebullience. Will I ever learn to let go and be happy just to be? Looking down, I saw in the upper left on the front page was a preview box announcing: . Healer wages a quiet battle against developers of $150-million mall Already a Biblical reference to color my image in spiritual hues. One giant step towards kookdom. A nervous blush rushed through me in dread anticipation of what lay inside. While Joe removed his winter coat, suit coat and tie, I flipped the paper open to the Lifestyle section. My heart almost shuddered to a halt when I saw an 8xl0 photo of my face staring from the front page. I was holding two dowsing rods in gloved hands, scarf wrapped thickly around my neck. My eyes and brow were contracted in a piercing squint beneath the overhang of my cap which proclaimed: "Miller High Life". "Such an image of intensity!" I thought. "But not my best face. Why can't I be smiling? But how much have I smiled through this ordeal? My face is so thin! It looks like my face is caving in." I felt weak as my blush deepened to flush, and I almost sat down on the steps, but I stood my ground and turned the folded page over to reveal its lower half. Bold letters stated: That was, after all, the public title I'd chosen last November: Healer. After years of calling myself community organizer and health educator, I decided it was time to announce my secret identity. Not that I felt ready to fulfill the role. Now here it was reflected back to me in giant picture and bold letters. Being a healer is a dilemma. First, it sounds pretentious. Second, healer has no legal definition as a profession, such as doctor, dentist or psychiatrist, Third, in a society where most people look for someone to fix them and rid them of their sickness, a healer can be a target of unrealistic expectations. It has darker associations, such as quack. I felt vulnerable and naked to have such a public label. The caption below my ink dot image said,
Below this was a second photo, an aerial showing Oil City looking south toward downtown from Marley's. The round white tanks in a landscape of light gray gravel looked neat and clean. Far in the distance, behind the towers of downtown, was the dark outline of The Big Hill. 'To bad a photo doesn't convey odors and sounds," I mused. "And there's no trees in Oil City."
I dropped the page, too nervous to go on. Agitation surged inside, my thoughts churned, shattering my concentration. The first paragraphs and already I seem an oddball. Joe watched my face, gauging my reaction. "Why don't you read the article while I get ready," he said. "I'll lie down a few minutes and unwind while you assess your new public image." Then he bounded upstairs, leaving me to face myself alone. Bringing the page back to eye level, I read on.....
My face flushed at the intensity of this quote. It seemed I was overstating the situation. But then, what about the oil and gas? And what about the genetic effect of gallons of PCB's? Yes, Marley's is a bomb. And Pyramid's rushing onto the trigger.
My mind rolled over groaning, "Oh, great! The wimp rides again. The flea on the elephant. The mosquito on the dragon."
My thoughts boiled, ''Yes, aren't we all sincere. Sincerely wrong, they no doubt sincerely believe. And so, therefore, must I. Spring will be here soon, Bruce Kenan. Sincerely."
I thought, "Uh oh, this is getting very personal. It isn't about transformers and PCBs, or dowsing. It's about me. Will I be portrayed as fanatic? Or glory hound? Or kamakazi martyr?"
My mind jumped, "#7 on the Kook Scale. I sound paranoid."
I mused, "There's that foolish idea again: rid. Getting rid of cancer, getting rid of hazardous waste, getting rid of Oil City. Where is this place rid? How do we get there?"
I thought, "A macrobiotic diet isn't good luck. But meeting me is. The greatest miracle is Life itself, happening every day, every season, every year, every generation. Particularly given the daily assaults against the planet's life by the wheeled machines of Industrial Revolution. Our ignorance of Life makes it even more miraculous. Are we the flaw in God's plan?" Potash sees nothing inherently wrong with holistic healing, as long as it doesn't HEALER,C3 The page ended. Opening to page 3, my eyes saw at the top: Below, a dialog box said, but I made a lot of bread." David Yarrow on his bakery days The text continued, present itself as the exclusive means to a cure. And he understands Yarrow's followers. "It's like religious belief. If you believe and you want it to work, it can help you. " Turbulence rippled my thoughts, "Food isn't belief, it's biological reality. Christ taught us to pray 'give us this day our daily bread', not steak, eggs, pizza, ice cream, or chemotherapy. Christ also said, 'Man does not live by bread alone.' He was speaking about 'faith', not 'belief.' Whether we believe or not, we have to eat everyday. But without faith, no one will follow a strict healing diet very long."
A red alarm went off in my head, warning, "Watch that ego. Next you'll be talking to God. Then you'll truly be a nut."
I allowed myself a chuckle, "Higher salary for a spiritual man? What a subtle play on words. Did Bill intend that?"
The reporter had confused this sequence of events. I quit the college to start the bakery. The garden came at the same time. And I returned to Syracuse in 1971. Minor details.
I thought, "Agitator I'm not. Initiator, yes."
More confused time. I put five years in NOFA, not one.
"Stepped down?" I reacted. "More like driven out."
I was relieved, ''Thank God! Back to the transformers. Please, Bill, more on PCBs, less on David Yarrow."
"Uh oh," I thought. "Creeping up on the Kook Scale again. Pit bull was Jean's analogy, not mine."
"A pit bull with bad teeth! Some ferocious image!" I moaned.
I was torn in two. My mind analyzed that last image. The reporter failed to mention that PCBs are mutagenic, and cause birth defects. And he got the details of my story slightly wrong, but essentially correct. But what an image to end with! At the same time my gut and heart convulsed as I forced back tears. The article skirted the edge of portraying me as an oddball weirdo, and in the end revealed me as compassionate and intense, if unusual. Could I ask for a better presentation? Could I stand to be shown as sensitive and idealistic in a culture which exalts macho? Folding the paper I climbed the steps to my appointments room when Joe lay waiting. "Well, kind sir, did the paper treat you well?" he inquired. ''Yes, well enough," I said as I began his acupressure. "I seem like a serious, intelligent guy doing a courageous thing. Even if I'm wrong, I look good. Eccentric, yes. But crazy, no." ''You must be relieved," Joe said. ''The paper has come out on your side. Now you have some clout behind you." "It's great to recieve such positive publicity. But it would be better to know those transformers are going to be removed." ''Yes, but this is sure to help. Now lots of people know, and Pyramid will have to be more careful. The cat's out of the bag." "In the article Pyramid plays it real cool. The situation isn't polarized, despite the 'me vs. them' image in the headlines. My strategy has been not to oppose Pyramid, and to tell the truth to whoever will listen. My danger is to keep a secret and be trapped in intrigue. Besides, I really believe I was put here to help Robert Congel realize his vision." Joe chuckled, "You sure have them guessing on that—helping by holding them up. Now this negative publicity about the site." "I worry this will get me investigated. I'm vulnerable for practicing medicine without a license. Even to defend myself against charges would consume what little energy I have. But it's a risk I accepted when I decided to tell people I'm a healer." ''You're safe, aren't you? You've always been careful." ''Yes, but I made mistakes. Not my recommendations—no one is hurt eating grains and vegetables. Everyone benefits from an improved diet. But at times I'm a poor communicator. An immense challenge faces anyone healing major illness, and I feel so inadequate to provide the support they need. Everyone I help is grateful for what I'm able to do, but some family members take a different attitude." "But you really needn't worry," Joe said. "I doubt Bruce would attack you. It's not his style." I wished I felt as confident as Joe. "He doesn't have to. Forcing me to the effort I've made in recent weeks has pushed me to the edge. I couldn't pay rent last month and don't have money yet for this month." "Will you be OK?" Joe's voice expressed genuine concern. "Yes, my landlord understands what I'm up against. I just began to get my life moving forward after New Year's, and then, boom, I found the transformers. Because of that, I've lost clients. For one, Don White, a client for eight years, cut me loose. I just haven't had the energy to do my usual work. I lost weight due to my teeth, and I've been consumed by this confrontation with Pyramid. And the Athletic Club's lockers are being painted and it has poor ventilation. By late afternoon I'm weak and spacy from breathing paint fumes. I'm almost ready to quit going there at all. It's an example of what might happen to Carousel Center because of fumes from under Marley's." "Certainly you're better off seeing people here," Joe said. 'True, but I haven't time, energy or enthusiasm after dealing with Pyramid to attract new clients. I spend hours each week writing, talking to people and pounding pavement downtown." Joe was sympathetic. ''There's a limit to how many people you can serve. Healing requires very personal attention. The intensive education and emotional support you provide means you can only deal with a few people at once. Now the paper's come out on your side, you can get back to your own work." I shook my head. "I wish. But I'm going back to Marley's to take a sample. Probably this Sunday." "Do you have to? Why be a martyr?" He was more annoyed at me for being foolhardy than concerned for .my safety. "Who else is going to take a sample? Not the DEC. I wish I didn't have to, but it seems the only way to force a serious inquiry. Sometime soon I'll have to take a sample." "You don't think this newspaper coverage is going to make a difference? Obviously the paper came out on your side." "I wish. Pyramid hasn't answered any of my letters, press releases or phone calls. Bruce hasn't met with me as he promised. He says in the paper they plan no further digs. His offer to go there in the spring is just PR to placate the press. I'm angry to see a dangerous situation ignored. Marley's is too dangerous to ignore any information. They could at least let me talk to their engineers. Meanwhile DEC won't get involved." ''Pyramid is used to fighting off opposition. To them you are a troublesome gnat who can be ignored." 'They may have fought lawyers, developers, politicians, environmentalists, and housewives. But Pyramid has never confronted a dowser, healer and spiritual man. I believe I'm in their path due to a different power. Not civil power, but real spirit." I said this with conviction, aware how odd I sounded. ''But why? What will you gain? Aren't you just exhausting yourself in someone else's war?" Joe was upset. "I'm convinced now there's more than a dispute about hazardous waste here. My growing belief is this is but a prelude to other more powerful events. Right now I can't tell what, but the signs point to something greater than a shopping mall." "Aren't you reaching a bit here? I've known you a few years now, and our weekly conversations have taught me a lot about spirituality. But other people will think you've lost your reason." I laughed softly, "No, I haven't lost my reason. I've gone beyond it. I'm now following my Intuition for guidance. Reason alone can't explain what is happening at Marley's. At this point I almost don't care if I'm right or wrong. My intuition says this has to be done for purposes which escape my reason." "For one, it's a lesson for Pyramid and the half brained mind that creates Marley's, Oil City and worse. How can David Yarrow know all I do about Marley's? Not by ordinary means. Not because I'm clever. A remarkable string of coincidences has brought a lot to my awareness in a short time. Pyramid is being challenged to see there are other powers than human ambition and cleverness. I'm only a messenger. Turn over." I'd finished Joe's front and it was time to work on his back. As he twisted on my table, I continued, "What I've really discovered isn't hazardous waste. My real find has been that the Finger Lakes have been a center for human culture for thousands of years, and there are traces of those ancient societies. The physical evidence of this includes the Indian mounds I've studied for five years. But it also includes history, legends and myths which are somehow written into the land itself. Sacred space used to be a concept for me, but now I'm really understand that the Earth is alive—a living organism. And there is something very special, very ancient and very sacred about this landscape in central NY." "I don't understand all this yet. All I have are glimpses, but they now make a distinct and special kind of sense to me. The situation at Marley's is loaded with ominous signs and symbols of the forces which are gathered there. I've never seen such a collection of meaningful imagery and coincidence in one place. Something far more significant than a shopping mall is there. And nearly all the signs I've seen point to Onondaga Nation." "Marley's is a very odd place—like another time or another space. I told you how it's a geomantic hole—some sort of umbilical passage into the Earth. And now the boys at Pyramid are about to ram their shopping mall into this odd place in their lust for money. My inner guidance says loudly, 'Do it! Push this historic process the next step.' God needs a human being to take the necessary action. I just know, whether I'm right or wrong about the transformers, this is the right thing to do." "As one crowning example, my house I live in is in an unusual place. I told you it's sits at a strong vortex of Earth energies. On a hunch, I measured my maps last week to discover my house is halfway between the head and tail of the Onondaga Dragon. In yet another way, even in my home I'm in the middle of this whole situation. I don't know how I got here, but it all adds up to more than accident or coincidence. I just wish I knew where all this is going land me. But I can only follow my intuition and see where it leads. I feel like I'm stepping off an edge. Somehow." I was silent a few moments, then said, "I have no power here. All I have is my awareness—my terrible awareness that there's something very dangerously wrong at Marley's. And it's more than PCBs. I have to take a sample. It's my only path forward. I have to force them to pay attention and do it right. Somehow." I finished Joe's acupressure in silence as we both pondered our conversation. I left him to dress and busied myself in the kitchen. Minutes later he joined me to hand me money., then he gave me a slip of paper. Looking, I saw a check for $100. He peered intently at me. "You're a most unusual man, David Yarrow. I wish I could help more, but I'm no Congel. Will you be OK?" I returned his gaze with deep gratitude, and a trace of shame. ''Yes, somehow. Since Jan. 31 I've lived under a dark cloud of gloom—the mood of Marley's. I lived on the thin edge for years, though I thought those days were over. Last year when I left the Center, I insisted I needed a home and a companion. I believe I'm doing the right thing and God will provide for my needs. I never ask for much. I'm sorry to lean on you, but thanks." Joe looked at me softly and said, "Do you have copies of your press releases and letters? I can get them to people downtown who will put pressure on Pyramid." I gathered a set of press releases and letters. 'Thanks. I haven't asked my friends to get involved in this. I've taken this on myself, and I may be wrong. I've tried to confirm all the details. But if you can bring this to anyone's attention, it may help get an honest investigation. Thanks again." We embraced for a long moment. I felt relief to lean on a friend for that brief instant, to feel his warm concern. Releasing Joe, I opened the door and we said goodbye. Walking to the dining room, I sat down to study the paper more. It was then I found the second article on page one of the Metro Section by Dick Case, the feature writer. He'd come on Wednesday to interview me. His headline announced: to block Pyramid's Carousel Mall "Give it a ‘5’ on the Kook Scale," I thought. 'There I am again—an opponent trying to stop the mall. Why does everyone see this as a battle? Will we ever learn to be of One Mind, not two?"
I mused, "A bone yard, indeed. There's more than toxic secrets buried there, Dick Case."
That was a little garbled and confused, but clear enough.
"Except there won't be any bulldozers at Marley's. How do you stand in front of a piledriver?" I thought. I returned to scanning the paper. On page one a headline caught my eye: The article reported that the city's code of ethics, established in the wake of revelations former Mayor Alexander extorted $1.4 million in kickbacks from developers, reads: No officer or employee of the city shall directly or indirectly solicit any gift or accept or recieve any gift having a value of $25 or more whether in the form of money, service, loan, travel, entertainment, hospitality, thing or promise, or any other form, under circumstances in which it could reasonably be inferred the gift was intended to influence him, or could reasonably be expected to influence him, in the performance of his official duties or was intended as an award for official action on his The article also revealed: Congel's been accused of buying a town board election to win approval for a mall in Poughkeepsie.
It ended with the one line paragraph: The vacation was over Sunday, Feb. 21.So while I was digging a hole at the place of beginning to puncture a transformer, the mayor was wining, dining and skiing with the developer who refuses to investigate my discovery. Who could I trust? Who was my friend? Who would pay me for my efforts? The next day I got a call from Ruth Fairfax in the Civil Service Employees Assoc. office in Albany, who had been alerted to my activities by workers at the New York State Barge Canal Terminal in Oil City who were alarmed about Pyramid's plans. They were afraid dredging of the Barge Canal Terminal would stir up heavy metals and industrial chemicals which had accumulated at the bottom of the canal, exposing them to the toxic sediments. Ruth went on to relate how Pyramid had a reputation for buying low value land such as swamps and old dumps to build their malls. There was even an investigation of one site where Pyramid had built on a known dump site. She lauded me for my efforts and encouraged me to continue my efforts to get a competent, professional investigation of Marley's. Grimly, I assured her that I would. She promised to send me a packet of information on New York State regulations for hazardous waste sites. |